Emptiness, forever engulfed in pain,
I can feel a hole inside. I laugh, I cry,
Still I feel the hole inside, deep down inside.
I tried to fill the hole with pain and shame.
With wine and time, with love,
With flight and fight.
Still I feel the hole inside, deep down inside.
When I came into this world
I was given but one passing.
I did all I knew.
I cried out to GOD, "Have I not been true?"
"What awesome wrong have I done to have suffered so?"
What pain, what cost, my very life, I had lost.
My cry ceased. I awaited his answer.
I reached out and touched the sound of silence.
Only deaf ears hear my plea. I am alone, forsaken.
Rather would I be dead. Still I ask the question...
"What is the hole that engulfs my soul?"
Alas, in desperation I declared,
"Take me LORD, for I have not the courage to go on."
I stood there, alone, empty, engulfed by the hole.
Only the night in its strange beauty
Spoke back to me of its greatness.
I stood there in the darkness,
Cast my eyes on 10,000 stars...
Maybe more, and touched the sound of silence.
Knowing only that I could not go on.
I simply surrendered.
I walked away empty, drained inside.
In my memory, it seemed so long ago, yet so clear.
How I stood in so much fear and waited.
The hole is still there. Yet so much smaller.
Ironic now it seems,
One by one I gave up all my dreams.
Yet in surrender, there came a kind of peace...
What rest I have given my soul.
With GOD I fill the mighty hole.
LeRoy K.
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