Double Messages
Double messages we
received growing up in alcoholic/dysfunctional
households.
LOVE vs.
REJECTION:
"I love you but don't bother me." In adult life
we are attracted to relationships where we are
rejected, because we equate love with rejection.
We are used to being abandoned either
emotionally or physically.
YOU CAN COUNT ON ME vs.
DISAPPOINTMENT:
"I'll be there for you... Next time." Our
parents wanted credit for their good intentions,
but didn't want their disappointing behavior to
count. We learned not to want or expect things.
We deny our needs because we don't want to be
disappointed when our needs aren't met. We don't
depend on others.
ALWAYS TELL THE TRUTH vs.
I DON'T WANT TO KNOW:
We were told to tell the truth...as long as it
was what our parents wanted to hear. Truth
became an ideal, lying the reality. In adult
life we lie automatically (without guilt) even
when telling the truth would be easier, or we
become super honest.
EVERYTHING IS FINE vs.
A SENSE OF HOPELESSNESS:
We were told that everything was fine or would
be alright, but the family atmosphere was one of
hopelessness, depression, and anxiety.
Everything is not alright. We now suffer from
distortions in our perceptions of reality, we
feel powerless over our lives and are often
depressed and distrust our own judgment.
BLAME THE ALCOHOLISM vs.
EXCUSE THE BEHAVIOR:
The alcoholic parent did some negative or
irresponsible behavior, like embarrassing us in
front of our friends, and we were told by others
not to get mad at the parent. "It wasn't his
fault. He was just drunk." Or, "He just has a
disease." We learned that "If I am drunk, I can
do whatever I want."
MY DAD IS WONDERFUL vs.
MY DAD IS A DRUNK:
Friends told me how lucky I was to have such a
fun father. They never saw him angry or abusive,
and they didn't believe me when I tried to tell
them.
I AM RESPONSIBLE vs.
I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE:
We were told that if we were good our parents
wouldn't have to drink. But even when we were as
good as we knew how, it didn't work. |